Dillon it napping and I am jumping at the opportunity!

So I haven't been on here in the past few days. Not a whole lot happening other than the usual, watching Dillon, family time, thinking very hard about packing but not, and helping get the garden up and going. Yesterday, I organized a little lunch for some friends so I could say good-bye. It was fun to see my friends one last time even though I felt like the convo focused on something I wish it wouldn't have. But oh, well. I am leaving tomorrow and I won't have to talk about that topic anymore. I was pleased that I wasn't getting all sad and sappy but that was until Christine came back to the car for one last hug and goodbye and Shelly said it was good getting to know you. I started to get a little teary but held myself together. I would like to think that I will stay in touch with all of my friends and they with me however, I have friends that have moved away and we rarely talk anymore. I am hoping my blogging will help us all stay in touch. Also I don't think any of us have been through something as torturous as nursing school and we all made it together. I for one couldn't have done it without them so maybe our bond is a strong enough to withstand long distance.

I must admit that the past few days of watching Dillon have been a little rough, especially today. Not because of anything he is doing but everyday it seems I have this realization that this will all be over soon. Gone are the days of me getting to play all day, Gone are the morning and afternoon cuddle naps that I have come to love so much (let's not kid ourselves here I have always loved naps and I will probably continue to take them, but I'm afraid it just won't be the same with out my precious angel.) Gone is the little family I have enjoyed being a part of so much. Now I am smart enough to know they are not gone for real and I get to see them a lot over the next year. (I'm pretty sure God had a hand in the timing of all this) However, I can't escape the feeling that I am going to miss out on so much. I have lived in WY since the month before Jen and Bill were married and I have live in this house since before Dillon was born I have watched them grow as a family and I must say I can only hope I am as happy with my new life as they are with theirs. I have learned so much from them and they have been a source of constant support for the past 2 1/2 years. It is going to be very hard for me to drive the opposite direction on Mon.

That said I am super excited at the same time. My life is a roller-coaster. This whole thing is bittersweet. I am stoked to start my life with CJ. We have been apart so long that we both agree that acclimating to one another is going to be fun and challenging. I'm always up for a challenge! We aren't using a step system here, we are going from only talking on the phone to living together. We keep asking the other if they're prepared for this and both of us are. I think it is going to be hilarious! He might want to wear a cup or something I'm afraid that since I will have my human punching bag back he might be in for a little pain. (Please note I do NOT condone partner abuse) We are a couple that enjoys wrestling and sometimes we get pretty physical. To the point of bruises but, none of it is out of anger. It is all fun and we are both consenting.

Well I think my little booger face is awake so I should go and play while I can.

What the helicobacter pylori!!!

It is May 24th. While not technically summer it should, in my opinion, feel like it or at least like spring. Nope the mountain has a fresh blanket of snow and all it did to day was pour rain, blow like the dickens, and thunder.
*Tangent* What exactly does blow like the dickens even mean? I mean was there a family that just sucked so much that people said they blew? I can think of a family like that but I won't mention any names! LOL! Or is this a long lost word that is only used as slang and the only reason that it exists in modern speech is because people have a tendency to take on other peoples phrases? This one being from their grandparents!
*End Tangent*

Today Dillon and I had a tuff morning we were running very low on milk which made a trip to the NCSD necessary so he could see his mom. This afternoon though we had a lovely long relaxing cuddly nap! He is the best of all cuddlers out their!

In other news, today marks the 19th anniversary of my father's death. It is amazing to think that what feels like yesterday was almost 2 decades ago! While I miss him very much, I am grateful for the life I've had. I have had 2 amazing fathers and while losing my first was and continues to be hard I love my father Randy so much. He stepped in and took me in like his own, he has done what I think my father would have. Well I am going to relax a bit and then hit the hay so I can be fresh for my little Dillon B. Monster tomorrow!

Happy B-day to ME!

So today I turned 27. Yeah so much better than 26 or 28... definitely the best of all the 20's. At least that is what I am telling myself. My wonderful sis made me blueberry muffins and she and Dillon delivered them to my dungeon (the basement) which was so nice of them. As my birthday present Bill kindly tasted the OJ I want to drink to make sure it was still okay. Such a sweetheart!  Then I reigned down my wrath on  my stuff in the garage and managed to consolidate it from 4 huge boxes and 2 random bags, to 2 medium boxes and 1 small box. May not seem like a big deal to you but for this self admitted Level 1 hoarder it is! Then I helped work on the new garden a little. After we finished our work we went to dinner at the Outback to celebrate...well...ME, OF COURSE! Anyway we are about to start watching our last episode of our favorite show LOST! So I have to adjourn for the evening!
TOO-DA-LOO!

27?! Really?

Have you stepped back and said holy metal batman I am turning 27 tomorrow and what do I have to show for it?! That is just what I did tonight. I can't believe that tomorrow is my 27th birthday and all I have to show for it is an associates degree and an annoying habit of procrastination. I'm moving back to Oregon to start my life. I have been saying that for 10 years. "Tomorrow is a new day and the day I will start over and change everything." I actually did it when I moved out here to go to school. Now I have accomplished what I came here to do. It is crazy that while I see it as a massive accomplishment it is never good enough. I see all these people around me that have all of these great qualities. Families, careers, friendships, etc. I realize that even though I have a degree, I haven't found a job, I don't know where I am going to live, and I still don't have my paperwork in to take my NCLEX. I get so frustrated with myself and I hate it. I know I have friends, a great family and a great career waiting in front of me but why has it taken me so long to get here. I have to start realizing I am enough, and the only one that defines "enough" is me. WHINE WHINE WHINE BLAH BLAH BLAH! Okay Meg quit your bitching and just do something about it already!
Here I go!

Can you believe I've made it two days in a row?!!!

Today I am going to work on packing the rest of my crap for my big trip home. We leave on Fri for Jackson and then we are going to Yellowstone for a couple days. I am going to leave my car in Jackson while we're in Yellowstone so on the way back to Casper Jen and Bill are going to drop me off at my car in Jackson and they will head home while I head to Oregon. This is going to be a very bittersweet trip. I am so excited about going home but leaving the two (now three) people that I love so much is breaking my heart. I am so grateful that I have this amazing family. It saddens me that not everyone has the connection my family does. I want them all in one place so I don't have to feel like I am missing out on their lives. Who knew day-to-day life could be so full of fun and that I wouldn't want to miss anything. I used to make excuses to get away from my family but that was before I knew what I was missing. My dream was always to move away on my own or with Ashley and start a whole new life with people that didn't already have their minds made up about me. Now that I have, I realize that I have been truly blessed by the life the Lord has given me.  Well it is time for us to go shopping so I have to end this. Maybe more tonight or tomorrow. I really am going to make this a regular thing this time! 

Finally!

Yeah so my resolution back in October to maintain a regular blog schedule didn't happen. For good reason though! LOL! I was super busy finishing this thing called Nursing school! I am happy to say I am officially a college graduate and getting ready to take my NCLEX! The last year was both extremely difficult and a blast at the same time! In Nov (on Thanksgiving actually) my sister gave birth to a baby boy Dillon Benjamin. I love my nephew SOOOO much! I never thought it was possible to love someone this much! Not that I don't love everyone else including CJ it is just a whole new type of love! It practically hurts I love him so much.
As of right now I am getting ready to move back to OR. I leave next Fri. It is going to be so hard to leave my family and the friends I made here but I am so excited to move home. CJ and I are planning on finding a place of our own and both of us are excited to start our lives together. I am a little worried about the blending though. Not that I think anything will break us, we are stronger than ever and I am crazy in love with this man, it is just so much is happening this year that we will already be stressed so combining our two lives may be a little harder than I thought.

Oh by the way watch out for me I am officially part of the "Bad Girls Club"! LOL! I received a call from the Casper PD stating that if I didn't leave this girl alone I was going to be charged with harassment and stalking. A restraining order would be filed and I wouldn't be getting my RN license! I have done nothing to this girl. She and my other friend were in this huge fight a long time ago but I remained friends with both of them... that is until the one filing charges quit talking to me. The real crappy part of it all is she lives across the street from me! The fact that she couldn't just talk to me and chose to call the cops due to a general statement on Facebook is absolute ridiculousness! Some people's kids I tell ya!!! Oh yeah and I am pretty sure she is the one that got me in trouble with the school. That is a whole other story that I am too sick of talking about to type it up here.

Anyway that is my life as it stands right now. GOOD TIMES!!!

Goal: Stick with it this time.

So I have not posted a new blog in ages. My life is seemingly boring. However, it isn't! Surprising. I am in my last year of nursing school in Casper, have a bunch of great friends out here that I love spending time with, and a wonderful fiance back in OR whom I can't wait to marry. Oh and I would be a horrible person if I didn't mention my future nephew who is supposedly making his premier appearance around Dec. 13th! With all of the exciting things happening in my life I feel the need to document them so I can hopefully look back one day and read about the little things I may have forgotten. More tomorrow I promise!